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radiantfracture: Beadwork bunny head (Default)
The camas is out! I don't think I've ever seen it such an incredibly saturated blue as this year. I got a sunburn and bright yellow pollen all over my jeans.






Asyouknowfriends, camas is an important plant of this territory: endangered now, it was once a core food crop -- the bulbs are edible. May it one day be eaten all across the territory again.

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radiantfracture: Small painting of Penguin book (Books post)
Another from Poetry Unbound -- "A Portable Paradise" by Roger Robinson. It felt fitting for conversations I've been having and witnessing.


A Portable Paradise

And if I speak of Paradise,
then I'm speaking of my grandmother
who told me to carry it always
on my person, concealed, so
no one else would know but me.
That way they can't steal it, she'd say.
And if life puts you under pressure,
trace its ridges in your pocket,
smell its piney scent on your handkerchief,
hum its anthem under your breath.
And if your stresses are sustained and daily,
get yourself to an empty room - be it hotel,
hostel or hovel - find a lamp
and empty your paradise onto a desk:
your white sands, green hills and fresh fish.
Shine the lamp on it like the fresh hope
of morning, and keep staring at it till you sleep.


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I like Ó Tuama's commentary because he moves seamlessly between context -- the poem appears in a collection that talks about the catastrophe at Grenfell; the biography of the poet, who lives between Trinidad and England; Ó Tuama's own responses; the derivation of words ("paradise" was first a Zoroastrian word!); and the uses of poetic devices like assonance.

Here is an example of his mobility of ideas:

a poem can issue many invitations, particularly invitations to identify with a character. A person might identify with the speaking voice of this poem, or with the grandmother. Someone might read something and see their lives open. In bringing my full self to read Roger Robinson's poem, I want to honour the part of me that's suffered, but I can't pretend I'm ever going to read this poem as anything other than a white man. Therefore, I ask myself what behaviours I've been part of that have taken other people's paradises, requiring them to seek shelter from me.


This might be one I choose to teach this summer.

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radiantfracture: Gouache portrait of my face with jellyfish hat (Super Jellyfish 70s Me)
Congrats to the Wizards & Spaceships podcast for making the Aurora awards ballot!

Their season finale episode with Robert J. Sawyer just came out.

Also I am particularly stoked about their upcoming season, for reasons.

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I was trying to use the word "sillion" in a word puzzle, which meant that I had to pick up Gerard Manley Hopkins, who is always close to hand, so that's what you get today.

It might as well be "The Windhover," source of the sillion (which means dirt), though I think I have posted it before.

(A windhover is a kestrel.)

You really have to read it out loud to hear the great sweeping wingbeats of it.


I caught this morning morning's minion, king-
dom of daylight's dauphin, dapple-dawn-drawn Falcon, in his riding
Of the rolling level underneath him steady air, and striding
High there, how he rung upon the rein of a wimpling wing
In his ecstasy! then off, off forth on swing,
As a skate's heel sweeps smooth on a bow-bend: the hurl and gliding
Rebuffed the big wind. My heart in hiding
Stirred for a bird, – the achieve of, the mastery of the thing!

Brute beauty and valour and act, oh, air, pride, plume, here
Buckle! AND the fire that breaks from thee then, a billion
Times told lovelier, more dangerous, O my chevalier!

No wonder of it: shéer plód makes plough down sillion
Shine, and blue-bleak embers, ah my dear,
Fall, gall themselves, and gash gold-vermilion.
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[personal profile] musesfool posted a poem by Li-Young Lee that I had not read before and that is so beautiful, painful and loving, that in response I'm just going to post another of Lee's poems.

And I'm going to choose it because there's already a Poetry Unbound episode about it, so you can go (re)-listen to that.



From blossoms
Li-Young Lee

From blossoms comes
this brown paper bag of peaches
we bought from the boy
at the bend in the road where we turned toward
signs painted Peaches.

From laden boughs, from hands,
from sweet fellowship in the bins,
comes nectar at the roadside, succulent
peaches we devour, dusty skin and all,
comes the familiar dust of summer, dust we eat.

O, to take what we love inside,
to carry within us an orchard, to eat
not only the skin, but the shade,
not only the sugar, but the days, to hold
the fruit in our hands, adore it, then bite into
the round jubilance of peach.

There are days we live
as if death were nowhere
in the background; from joy
to joy to joy, from wing to wing,
from blossom to blossom to
impossible blossom, to sweet impossible blossom.
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This one was hard. This is the second version I did. The first one came out so lumpy and messy I was worried I'd never paint again. The second one was like that too, until I remembered that paintings always feel like that halfway through.

Pileated woodpeckers are gorgeous in coloration, but super dinosaur-looking close-up.




ETA: I know the movement (smell?) lines are super silly, but I ran out of blue paint so I can't fix them.
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Friends! And those who can't remember why they followed me! Some small good things are afoot.

In podcasting, the March episode of Wizards & Spaceships is out -- on game design! (Rubs hands, rolls dice)

The splendid souls at Echobird Press have a call for submissions out for a hopepunk anthology.

They're also hosting Murmurations, an online Spoken Word Event on April 13 (1:30 pm MST), including Albuquerque Poet Laureate Emeritus Manuel González.

Here's a call for submissions for a paying zine called Trans Survivors: Healing in Action.

And, in the department of nose pressed up against the glass, applications are open for a fall 2025 Science Fiction residency at Banff! With Ai Jiang, Premee Mohamed, and Amal El-Mohtar!!!

Augh. There's no way I can attend -- I'll be teaching. Maybe you can go and then tell me all about it. That would be sweet torture.

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I am reading Emily Wilson's Odyssey translation for the BISR course that begins on Wednesday night.

I'm in Book III just now, when Telemachus is visiting the neighbours for news of his father and hears instead of the fates of Agamemnon and Meneleus. After an evening of talking, Telemachus and Mentes/Athena rise to leave. Nestor insists they stay the night. Athena refuses, making one of her dramatic exits:
bright-eyed Athena flew away, transformed
into an ossifrage.


Now, on further investigation, it seems like ossifrage can refer to several different birds, but the first hit I got was this:
The bearded vulture (Gypaetus barbatus), also known as the lammergeier and ossifrage, is a very large bird of prey in the monotypic genus Gypaetus. The bearded vulture is the only known vertebrate whose diet consists of 70–90% bone. (Wikipedia)


Hi amazing. Bone specialists! So metal.

The bearded vulture doesn't have a bald head, but it does have a fantastically acid stomach. And it's got an amazing kind of glam biker look.

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I need something to look forward to in the mornings, this February. A reason to get up other than the material insistence of the body.

I thought about trying to write a poem a day, but a poem -- a poem that makes me happy, anyway -- is a particular mood. So I thought: what's the easiest possible thing? And that would be some kind of description. A glimpse.

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In the thirteenth room, the windows look out on a wide green lawn. It's raining, and the props of some game have been abandoned. It might be croquet, except that the mallets look more complicated and, if possible, more menacing.

In the distance, two ranks of heavy trees converge like green hands encircling the lawn. Beyond is a hazy gray sky, as though the ground drops away suddenly at the edge of the grass. Sometimes a bird crosses the empty space, a tiny black flaw like a fleck of ash, or a golden one like a spark. A conflagration of birds, burning just out of sight.

These grounds are not visible from any other window, and no doorway lets out onto them.

One pane of the window has been broken and repaired with a square of black cardboard. Removing the cardboard reveals the howling void beyond. I do not recommend it.

The room smells of dust and brick, extinguished fires, ozone, the jug of water on the mantel of the empty hearth, and an animal, perhaps a dog.


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You can tell by the style that I have been re-reading Piranesi.

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radiantfracture: Small painting of Penguin book (Books post)
In-person if you're in Welland, Ontario, and Zoom if like me you live in the tiny cracks in the world-machine:

Join us as we host a virtual visit with Rachel A. Rosen, an activist, graphic designer, a high school teacher and co-author of The Sad Bastard Cookbook: Food You Can Make So You Don't Die.


Sat, Mar 22
2pm Eastern Time
Seaway Mall Branch

Sign up here!

The internet tells me that the average monthly cost of living in Welland is exactly $4 higher than the average income.

This is so apposite that I will choose to report those statistics without further investigation.

I plan to attend! Maybe we'll see black boxes with each other's names in them there!

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A princely gift today in the mail. Precisely a gift for princes -- rare and ancient perfumes, which is to say a huge de-stash of Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab (and other perfumiers) from [personal profile] elusis.

Envelope after envelope pulled out of the big black packet like rabbits out of a hat, or hats out of a hat, wherein huddle dozens of curiously fragrant brown hares. And some of the coveted blue bottles, buzzing with antiquity. And a smell of rose so nostalgic I seem to remember a past life.

And one of those kits of individual notes for mixing, and a bottle to mix them in.

Thank you! it's a pretty incredible gift, and so far there's little or no overlap that I've noticed with my own accumulations.

The package was standing up against the door of the beautiful shed when I poked my head out, mole-like, at 3:15, having spent the day in bed due to post-vaccination fever and chills. By then I felt much better, and now I have a whole alchemist's shop to wander through.

It's a perfect bright clear day, but cold, so that even with both the oil heater and the baseboards on, it's been difficult to keep the beautiful shed at 19° C.

How can I describe this bright blue sky so that you see it more vividly than any other bright blue sky you've ever seen or I have ever described, which is a great many, I hope, on both sides? Well, it is like an early and surprised visit from a god of late summer, Lugh, say, stumbling in bewildered perhaps after a night of dancing at winter's wake, his long coat-tails brushing the dry branches and startling them into bloom. That kind of blue.

The package arrives with remarkably good timing, as I don't think any long walks under the blue sky are foretold for the rest of today.

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radiantfracture: Small painting of Penguin book (Books post)
Two poems by Lucille Clifton. The first one came up on Instagram and the other I found at the Poetry Foundation.

night vision

the girl fits her body in
to the space between the bed
and the wall. she is a stalk,
exhausted. she will do some
thing with this. she will
surround these bones with flesh.
she will cultivate night vision.
she will train her tongue
to lie still in her mouth and listen.
the girl slips into sleep.
her dream is red and raging.
she will remember
to build something human with it.




here rests

my sister Josephine
born july in '29
and dead these 15 years
who carried a book
on every stroll.

when daddy was dying
she left the streets
and moved back home
to tend him.

her pimp came too
her Diamond Dick
and they would take turns
reading

a bible aloud through the house.
when you poem this
and you will she would say
remember the Book of Job.

happy birthday and hope
to you Josephine
one of the easts
most wanted.

may heaven be filled
with literate men
may they bed you
with respect.

Notes and discussion )

It seems to me there are such powerful principles in these poems, told in such intimate, personal scenes.

What do you hear?

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radiantfracture: a white rabbit swims underwater (water rabbit)
It's been at least a year since I painted anything seriously, and more like two.

But artist Brett Manning ([instagram.com profile] brettmannignart)
posts the Faebruary art challenge every February, and I like the prompts.

I am behind, of course, but that's kind of reassuring. At this rate I will have prompts for all of February. Here's prompt #1, Holly King.



* * * * *

The prompts seem kind of wintry this year.

[ETA: right, I was going to explain why it looks like that.]

I'm always a bit rusty when I approach these prompts because I paint very little when school is in session. I need a certain kind of expansiveness in my mind. Also, a certain kind of exhaustion helps. Maybe they go together.

Anyway, the first painting in a series can be a bit all over the place because of that. This is much less polished than I'd like, but I thought I should post it to get myself back in the habit.

In this case, I was looking at some stickers I had of Kandinsky's art and remembering how much I loved his playful visual language, and thinking it would be nice to make the king's portrait kind of break up into abstraction.

I can't really justify the combination of this style and fairy lore -- it's a strange soup, and not helped by my haphazard execution.

Oh well -- day one!

* * * * *

These days most Insta artists seem to have moved to Patreon, which makes sense for money and flexibility but renders them much harder to find.

2025 is probably the last year I will participate in the art challenge. I've always loved it, but it happens on Instagram, and even if I weren't trying to work out what to do about the ethical situation, the designers have rendered the platform useless for sharing art.

Cross-posted from [instagram.com profile] radiantfracture on Instagram.
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Including in-jokes about the weird scholarly treatment of ancient Mesopotamian epics.

a patch reading Tablet XII is Canon
radiantfracture: Small painting of Penguin book (Books post)
Advisors! Wise ones!

K. and M. and I were talking about getting back in to book-tracking, and I know just recently I saw some conversation here about the better apps for that.

(NB I need a better tracker for my DW-reading-list reading.)

I know some folks track on DW or in a spreadsheet -- I do that myself, loosely -- but as a group we'd like something a bit more sociable. (They're not active on DW.)

Do you have any suggestions for non-Goodreads apps? Notes from use?

I think what we are mainly looking for is simple -- a way to track reading and share thoughts about it with one another. I'm not looking for any broader functionality and I am particularly not looking for a site that wants me to engage with it like a social media site. That is, I understand that no site is perfect, and all stars must run on some fuel, but these features are uninteresting or anathema to me:
  • Promoting things
  • Having things promoted to me
  • Being invited to sign up for newsletters
  • Getting alerts about anything ever
  • The risk of interacting with actual authors
I can do all of that elsenet.

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radiantfracture: a gouache painting of a turkey vulture head on a blue background, painted by me (vulture)
1. A Helle of a Dissertation (sorry sorry sorry)

In dawdling about the Internet preparing for a conversation on Gilgamesh, I stumbled across Sophus Helle's dissertation.1

The dissertation is not itself about Gilgamesh, but about authorship -- Helle's other great interest being Enheduanna as the first named author of an ancient text.

I am engaged by his thesis, which suggests that authorship -- which is not a universal among pre-modern and early modern texts -- arises out of cultural crisis, the need to condense identity from a shared cultural body of literature into a single figure.

From the committee's notes:

Helle’s main argument is that authorship rose to prominence in an otherwise anonymous culture during times of cultural crises .... demographic, linguistic, and political upheaval that threatened the authority of cuneiform scholarship. Tradition had to be protected, and to do so, it had to be condensed into the figure of the author.


I have not read the entire dissertation -- only the preliminary notes so far! -- but I find this at least an interesting and in some ways a congenial thesis.

From the committee's notes again, Helle's approach seems both sane and useful:
Arguing that authorship in the ancient world should be studied as cultural narratives rather than as an empirical reality, Helle demonstrates that narratives of authorship are “a crucial and often overlooked source of information of how literary texts were perceived, categorized, and evaluated” (67).


The overall response of the committee is rather what I would expect of commentary on a dissertation by Helle: that the work is inspired, even brilliant, but also a little bit scattershot and neglectful of detail.

Here it is if you want to look at it too.

2. The Operatic Gilgamesh

There is a new opera based on Gilgamesh!

It's Australian. From 2024. The images associated with it appear to include Enkidu and Gilgamesh smearing (bull's?) blood all over each other.

Now I have to try to figure out whether there is a recording and if so, how I can see it.

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1. If you don't happen to be a ridiculous Gilgamesh fentity, I'll note that Helle is a current rock star of ancient text translation and the creator of my fave version of Gilgamesh. And, as Jasmine points out, his website is an academic thirst trap.

2. I do need an Ancient Texts icon of some kind.
radiantfracture: Small painting of Penguin book (Books post)
Hey, Rachel A. Rosen's newest book, Blight -- second in the Sleep of Reason series -- is now available for pre-order.

Come for the bone-dry humour, revolutionary politics, and terrifying manifestations of the wrath of the world.

Stay to marvel at my meticulous consultations on the geography of the greater Victoria area.

It's true that I have a vested interest in your admiration for the insistent realism of travel times across the sunken peninsula, but the book transcends that.

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radiantfracture: Small painting of Penguin book (Books post)
(Edited as I go)

1. When The Tiger Came Down the Mountain (Singing Hills Book 2)- Nghi Vo

An excellent Scheharezadesque fable -- the Lady and the tiger. The tigers are very tigerish. The novella length is perfect. I have put more on hold.

2. The Empress of Salt and Fortune (Singing Hills Book 1) - Nghi Vo

I got this on Kindle because I was so impatient to read another book in the series. (I quite like reading books in a series out of order. A habit from growing up with network television and libraries.)

I liked this a lot. I like the convention of the objects as a means to tell the story, and they were very beautiful objects. I liked that I knew a secret was going to be revealed, but I wasn't sure exactly what it was. Feeling myself set up deftly, but also allowed to see the setup from the corner of my eye. And I cried a little at the end of the story. I'm not even sure why. Something about recognition.

As I said to [personal profile] yarrowkat , I think I like the tigers best so far, but that might just be because I read them first.

3. A Fine and Private Place - Peter S. Beagle

I thought this would be my first book finished of the year. It's been on my list a long time in a vague way. I liked the ghostly premise, but for me, the execution bogged down in pontification. I did like the ending; I certainly felt a kinship with Rebeck's inability to live in the world.

older notes on A Fine and Private Place )

I also thought my first book might be Day of the Triffids, but its misogyny and its version of human nature are even more irritating than the flaws of Place. Don't know yet if it's a DNF or a FWA (Finished With Annoyance).

4. Into the Riverlands (Singing Hills Book 3) - Nghi Vo

Book 3! This was vivid and fun, full of cartoony action and immediately vivid characters. Each of the books in the series is about how stories are told and transmitted. I think this book is about stories that are fragmented, interrupted, and multiple -- and that's also how the book is structured. So that was clever! But in the end, when the stories all came together, I thought: hmm, I don't think I understand why this is supposed to have weight for me. So I went back over the book again – you can do that with novellas – and I saw most of the moving parts, but I still didn't really understand quite what the point was.

I think possibly that while the novella form was a strength for the first two books -- they used the confined space flawlessly, made it feel vast -- brevity may have been a limitation to this one. For me, this would have been a richer experience if I'd gotten more backstory and motivation for several characters (who are the sworn sisters? How did they get sworn? What is it that's driving the bandits so powerfully?)

Still, really glad to have finally encountered these books.

5. The Brides of High Hill (Singing Hills Book 5) - Nghi Vo

I started Book 4, Mammoths at the Gates, but I wasn't connecting to it, so since this came in at the library, I skipped to it and read it in a morning.

I think I liked this. The story structure was quite interesting. What happens when one story of oppression is false, but it masks a deeper story of a more complex conflict?

spoilers )

6. Mammoths at the Gates (Singing Hills Book 4) - Nghi Vo

Do you ever use one book to help you with another? I started reading The Bear and the Nightingale, and was enjoying that quite a bit, and when I switched back to finish this I liked it better.

I liked the core idea here. It seemed like a fairly direct analogy for being trans and having that identity rejected by your family, but that's not really where Vo took it, which I liked.

I was very tired when I finished it, and rushing a little. I found the solution clever but not emotionally compelling. I thought Cleric Thien's secret was oddly generic and I'm not sure I think it was fully emotionally addressed.

There were a couple of places where I thought the copy-editor had missed a step -- a pronoun switch, and a weird timeline.

7. good woman: - Lucille Clifton

t is a quiet pleasure to watch Clifton's voice evolve, to see her refining the tools of her work. I think I can see that incredible ethical command of language that she will later show, taking shape across these early collections as she experiments with syntax, with repetition, with expanding and contracting her lines.

And these collections come bundled with a lyrical memoir, a braiding of her family's history back to her great-great-grandmother, who held in her memory their family history back to before slavery: "the woman called Caroline Donald Sale born free in Afrika in 1822, died free in America in 1910" (223).

Often telling the story in the voice of her father, Clifton layers short chapters to build up the story of her father's funeral, of his great grandmother, of his grandmother, his father, then Clifton's mother and finally herself and her two sisters.

8. The Bear and the Nightingale - Katherine Arden

I've discussed this book in more detail elsewhere. I think Arden is incredibly good at creating a setting and a cast of characters within it. The figures were as vivid to me as in the best historical novels.

The plot I found a little less sure-footed -- it never felt quite in focus. I ended up enjoying the book, but I don't feel a lot of propulsion towards the rest of the series.

9. True Grit - Charles Portis

I did think this was well-written and gripping, though I didn't fall in love with it the way many people seem to. @

10. Piranesi - Susanna Clarke

A reread. Incredibly readable and satisfying. I do have some questions about it which I may address in another post. I went over at this time and wrote down some notes about the structure, since it works so perfectly.

11. Sing for the Coming of the Longest Night - Iona Datt Sharma, Katherine Fabian

Ably written cozy fantasy, but not for me. I appreciated the focus on networks of care in queer communities. It's not these authors' fault that I dislike plot developments where the characters pretend to be somebody else to gain access to some institution. Still, I feel like some of the choices were weird. (The book spends almost no time in fairyland and quite a lot in a church. The two biggest emotional scenes happen offstage.)

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radiantfracture: A child contemplates a map and a vista. Text at the top reads "so many games." (RPG icon)
I'm writing some game text and hesitated over the spelling of the word jeopardy. Jeopardy. That's a weird-looking word. Looks kind of like leopard. And jealous. French? So I looked it up.

according to the Online Etymological Dictionary:

jupartie, ioparde, etc., "danger, risk;" earlier "a cunning plan, a stratagem" (c. 1300), from or based on Old French jeu parti "a lost game," more correctly "a divided game, game with even chances" (hence "uncertainty"). The sense perhaps developed in Anglo-French.

This is from jeu "a game" (from Latin iocus "jest;" see joke (n.)) + parti, past participle of partir "to divide, separate" (10c.), from Latin partire/partiri "to share, part, distribute, divide," from pars "a part, piece, a share" (from PIE root *pere- (2) "to grant, allot"). Jeopardous "in peril" (mid-15c.) is now obsolete.


A lost game! Very satisfying.

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Wrung out in mid-December,
I grasp the wrong words
when I greet the ordinary objects
of my life.

Hello calendar, I say to the candle.
Well, they both burn down.

The year is a stub, sputtering,
almost out. The candle is new.
Tobacco and saffron, with a cedar wick,
a low blue flame glowing by my right hand
in a clay cup,

which needs to be turned now and then
so that the soft wax
will melt evenly
all the way out to the edge.

I am too tired
to make a metaphor of this.
I care for the candle,
turning it in the cool air
from under the door.
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